Friends.Family.Foe part 1

To date, i can fairly say that I'm no great friend to anyone. My best friend is my Hubby and 2 kids, and also my mom. In a nut shell, that does seem kinda sad. But why?
What is a friend? to me, a friend is someone that i can communicate with. I have many aquintance which i categorise as friends, mostly collegues. be it in school, college or at work.
When i was lil girl, in Kindy..I had 1 best friend. her name was havyana (i don't know how to spell it). She was my neighbour and also my schoolmate. We did so many things together from having our meals to taking our bath and also playing together. Unfortunately, at 10 yo, she passed away.
In primary school, i had Zeti Faralin, Yuzlirizan & Wan Hasniza. We did most school activites together. Nothing our of the school though, cause we live far from each other (oklah, for for kids our age). Furthermore, on weekends I was usually at clubs like Lake Club or KDE which non of them were members.
In lower secondary, Yuzlirizan and me were thrown into the rough world of SMLK. Then we moved to SMTM in the middle of F1. There I was still with Yuzlirizan but we had Suraini and Syima with us.
After form 3, i stayed at SMTM. Yuz & Suraini went to bording school. Syima left for Penang. At F4, i befriended Halina, Hazlina & Naddiana. Our friendship wasn't so strong thoughout. I was much closer to my skating counterparts like Selly, Mel and Nur whom were all in CBN.
After F5, I went to MYPM for my matriculation. There i met Aifa and Tasha Idha. Then entering UKM, Tasya stayed at the main campus but I was in KL with Aifa. We were best of buds alongside Norul & Gabby. None were my roommate. Yuzlirizan was here with me but she had her medic buddies. Alas i Quit UKM at Y1 and soon after Yuzlirizan passed away.
Now, as i joined HELP, i made new friends. I had Julie, Chut and Norman at Diploma. Then I pursued my degree with Laifa and Loshini. Oh yes...I also had Jamil beside me, Not exactly classmate, but friends nonetheless..
yada yada yada....that's was friends for me.
I envy those with a tight circle of friends. Those whom although married with kids still hang out together, although the venue and activities would probably change. Of all the friends i had with me, those that i still keep in touch are people like Selly, Halina and Nadd. The rest? I'm sure if we met i'd say Hi, but that's just it.